I was sleeping, but I did not disappear in my sleep. I was aware of myself not as a body or a personality, but as an essence. It was neither space nor time. Rather \u2013 it was pure being, a darkness without fear, an absence of light in which there was no lack.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
In this formless presence, I felt a warmth of extraordinary density at my very center \u2013 at the core, at a source that has no name. This warmth was love, but not as an emotion. It did not arise and it did not vanish \u2013 it had no beginning and no end. It was a state of absolute overflow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Love was not directed outward, nor did it strive for anything. It simply was \u2013 and out of its excess, it poured from my center into the darkness around me, without changing itself. I want to call this state absolute Eros \u2013 not as desire, but as the self-movement of being, as a fullness that requires no object.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
After waking, I felt a presence within me. As if something had left a mark \u2013 or had perhaps never left me, and merely allowed itself to be recognized. It was not an intrusion, nor was it \u201csomeone else,\u201d but a quiet, dense intimacy that requires no image.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
This is the second such experience in my life. In its state, it is close to ecstasis, but of a different nature. There was no going beyond limits here \u2013 only remaining in the center. Not a movement, but a coincidence. Not an event, but a truth.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
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